Why?

The tears build up in my eyes.
I don't get it.
You hide things from me,
and yes, I know I'm a hypocrite,
but I don't care.

I thought you were meant
to tell me everything, be straight with me.
Am I living in a dream world?
I only want the truth.

Are there things you are meant to
hide from me, or am I just
imagining that we shouldn't keep
things from each other?
My heart's sinking.

And I can't find a life-raft,
or a barrel; nothing to keep me
drifting in this ocean of tears.
No hands to pull me out, or
set me free.

I feel caged in by something
unidentifiable. And I hate it.
I can't find a happy state,
and every time I think of you,
I'm falling.

Falling deeper and deeper into a pit
filled with dispair and hurt.
My eyes, drowning in tears,
scream for salvation.
My emotions over-power me.

Damn.

18.02.08