Your words, they
tore me open
yet again.
But.
On reflection,
you were very
right. You
let
me see the
upside to this
pessimistic world of
mine.
My thoughts are
new, changed in
perspective, a fresh
way.
In this new
chapter, you
are my best
friend.
Nothing more,
nothing less than
loyal, a caring
soul.
A guide to
help me through
life, to survive
love.
My heart is
different too:
my love is
stronger.
But meant
as a brother,
not a lover, to
me.
The joy your
presence in my
life gives me is
heaven.
We spent so
many magic hours
together, but this
is
undoubtedly
for the best,
for the future,
us.
Always stand
by me, as I will
for you. Love you
bro.
For NBx
02.12.09
Saturday 5 December 2009
Realised too late?
If only I had looked
deeper into my heart
sooner, I may have
seen it longing for you
to set it on fire.
These past few months,
it has only smouldered
and crackled, but now
you are near, it wants
to blaze strong again.
Memories of you make
flames leap, sparks fly,
flying like stardust in
the air, making our love magic.
I want you, I won't
lie about it anymore, but
how can I tell you how I
feel? Everything is
just a dream.
30.11.09
deeper into my heart
sooner, I may have
seen it longing for you
to set it on fire.
These past few months,
it has only smouldered
and crackled, but now
you are near, it wants
to blaze strong again.
Memories of you make
flames leap, sparks fly,
flying like stardust in
the air, making our love magic.
I want you, I won't
lie about it anymore, but
how can I tell you how I
feel? Everything is
just a dream.
30.11.09
Want
I'm pining for you.
I never realised until
now, but now that I know,
I also know I want
you in my arms.
My soul calls for you
every day as the sun rises,
and still when the moon
watches over my restless,
dreamless slumber.
But if I chance to
dream, you are always
with me, supporting me,
or haunting me in my
constant nightmares.
I tried to cleanse
you from my system, rid
you from my skin, because I
feel your warm fingers
in my hair, everyday.
But no matter how hard I
tried, you never left me alone,
and secretly, I was glad that you
stayed. My heart is
always, eternally yours.
22.11.09
I never realised until
now, but now that I know,
I also know I want
you in my arms.
My soul calls for you
every day as the sun rises,
and still when the moon
watches over my restless,
dreamless slumber.
But if I chance to
dream, you are always
with me, supporting me,
or haunting me in my
constant nightmares.
I tried to cleanse
you from my system, rid
you from my skin, because I
feel your warm fingers
in my hair, everyday.
But no matter how hard I
tried, you never left me alone,
and secretly, I was glad that you
stayed. My heart is
always, eternally yours.
22.11.09
Again
A guiding light,
leading me through the
deep wilderness of my heart:
illuminating the dark corners,
giving me the strength
to climb over the
debris of love.
Shards of my broken
heart make trails of
destruction: paths of pain
snake across my skin,
burning when they are
caressed even by the
most loving fingers.
I can't stand it:
the heat behind your
fingers scalds me, sets me
on fire from within. I long
for the ice to return,
freeze my emotions.
But, when your touch
leaves, I miss it and want
your hands back on my skin,
running through my hair,
lingering on my face,
wiping away my tears.
I want you holding me
all night long, keeping me
safe: nothing bad can happen
when you're here. But when
you leave, the walls
crumble to the ground,
trapping me inside.
Please don't leave me.
I'd suffer a thousand flames,
endless floods, ages of ice and
landslides from the mountains before
I order you away from me.
You own the pieces
of my ruined heart.
Those pieces are fragile,
but I know you will put
my heart back together over time
and I hope, one you're done,
you can love it, me,
once again.
20.11.09
leading me through the
deep wilderness of my heart:
illuminating the dark corners,
giving me the strength
to climb over the
debris of love.
Shards of my broken
heart make trails of
destruction: paths of pain
snake across my skin,
burning when they are
caressed even by the
most loving fingers.
I can't stand it:
the heat behind your
fingers scalds me, sets me
on fire from within. I long
for the ice to return,
freeze my emotions.
But, when your touch
leaves, I miss it and want
your hands back on my skin,
running through my hair,
lingering on my face,
wiping away my tears.
I want you holding me
all night long, keeping me
safe: nothing bad can happen
when you're here. But when
you leave, the walls
crumble to the ground,
trapping me inside.
Please don't leave me.
I'd suffer a thousand flames,
endless floods, ages of ice and
landslides from the mountains before
I order you away from me.
You own the pieces
of my ruined heart.
Those pieces are fragile,
but I know you will put
my heart back together over time
and I hope, one you're done,
you can love it, me,
once again.
20.11.09
Past
The past.
That's where your
worse choices
stay.
The best
become memories
and forever
last.
You learn
from your actions,
and if not,
tough.
Look back
and smile at the
pain; cry for
your lost
love.
That's where your
worse choices
stay.
The best
become memories
and forever
last.
You learn
from your actions,
and if not,
tough.
Look back
and smile at the
pain; cry for
your lost
love.
Ice Show
I stare out my window.
A blanket of frost covers the frozen ground,
sparkling and shimmering against the
youthful morning sun.
My breath comes in clouds.
The windows steam up in my presence, crying
fresh tears with every blow: they trickle
down to my waiting hankie.
Watching, listening, it's all calm.
I want to go out to the garden; touch the
leaves, shining with dewy sequins that
capture the sun everywhere.
But it's cold out there.
My warm skin prickles in protest at the mere
thought of my feet touching the icy ground,
gasping with every breath.
I hug my gown closer.
The time has come for me to leave my
ring-side seat: the morning spectacle is
over, and bed is calling me back.
29.10.09
A blanket of frost covers the frozen ground,
sparkling and shimmering against the
youthful morning sun.
My breath comes in clouds.
The windows steam up in my presence, crying
fresh tears with every blow: they trickle
down to my waiting hankie.
Watching, listening, it's all calm.
I want to go out to the garden; touch the
leaves, shining with dewy sequins that
capture the sun everywhere.
But it's cold out there.
My warm skin prickles in protest at the mere
thought of my feet touching the icy ground,
gasping with every breath.
I hug my gown closer.
The time has come for me to leave my
ring-side seat: the morning spectacle is
over, and bed is calling me back.
29.10.09
Coma
Alive,
yet dead.
Warm,
but cold.
Heart
beating slow.
Pain?
More like agony.
I can
hear you
in the distance.
Calling
my name, but
it's not you,
is it? It's
him.
I feel
nothing now.
Numb
in my heart.
Love
drained away.
I'm comatose.
23.10.09
yet dead.
Warm,
but cold.
Heart
beating slow.
Pain?
More like agony.
I can
hear you
in the distance.
Calling
my name, but
it's not you,
is it? It's
him.
I feel
nothing now.
Numb
in my heart.
Love
drained away.
I'm comatose.
23.10.09
Burning
Memories.
Memories of you
burn inside me
all day, and night.
I lie awake
wishing the head
would die so I
could rest in peace.
Thoughts
filled only of you
scald my skin,
sear me inside and
smoulder in my heart,
relentless, it won't cool
or let me hope
for love to find me again.
Endless
days are spent in
search of some
soul that is lonely,
one that could
maybe love me right
and care for me
like I care for them.
But
my hope is fading
and I can't cope
with the emptiness I
feel inside.
I want someone to
make me feel
happy once again.
Time
is passing me by,
so quickly that
it's hard to grasp the
reality of my pain.
Nothing makes me
smile the way
you did.
23.10.09
Memories of you
burn inside me
all day, and night.
I lie awake
wishing the head
would die so I
could rest in peace.
Thoughts
filled only of you
scald my skin,
sear me inside and
smoulder in my heart,
relentless, it won't cool
or let me hope
for love to find me again.
Endless
days are spent in
search of some
soul that is lonely,
one that could
maybe love me right
and care for me
like I care for them.
But
my hope is fading
and I can't cope
with the emptiness I
feel inside.
I want someone to
make me feel
happy once again.
Time
is passing me by,
so quickly that
it's hard to grasp the
reality of my pain.
Nothing makes me
smile the way
you did.
23.10.09
Dark holes
There's a hole in my heart that
nothing seems to fill.
I feel nothing for anyone; I am
dead to the world.
Everytime I think, I think of you.
Pain tears through me.
I struggle to focus myself away
from those memories.
They kill me everyday, and as time
passes, the memories never fade.
I suffer day in, day out, and
beg for death to call
like I begged you to call, before I
cracked and lost my way.
I longed for you, your touch, your
kiss in the night. But
I guess those days are gone and
my heart will heal in time.
It's early days, though, and I miss you.
Please come home.
22.10.09
nothing seems to fill.
I feel nothing for anyone; I am
dead to the world.
Everytime I think, I think of you.
Pain tears through me.
I struggle to focus myself away
from those memories.
They kill me everyday, and as time
passes, the memories never fade.
I suffer day in, day out, and
beg for death to call
like I begged you to call, before I
cracked and lost my way.
I longed for you, your touch, your
kiss in the night. But
I guess those days are gone and
my heart will heal in time.
It's early days, though, and I miss you.
Please come home.
22.10.09
Light
There's light
at the end of
the tunnel.
It's far away
but getting
closer every day.
For months
we've been in
darkness,
in the murky
depths of
heartache and pain.
This dense
forest surrounds
our bodies,
growing darker
by the hour,
tearing us apart.
But we can
see the edge
of the
woods; the light
shines and
we'll get there soon.
The journey
won't be easy
but together
we'll wourk our way
out, to a
better life for us.
There's life
at the end of
the tunnel.
It's far away
but getting
closer every day.
24.03.09
at the end of
the tunnel.
It's far away
but getting
closer every day.
For months
we've been in
darkness,
in the murky
depths of
heartache and pain.
This dense
forest surrounds
our bodies,
growing darker
by the hour,
tearing us apart.
But we can
see the edge
of the
woods; the light
shines and
we'll get there soon.
The journey
won't be easy
but together
we'll wourk our way
out, to a
better life for us.
There's life
at the end of
the tunnel.
It's far away
but getting
closer every day.
24.03.09
The First Time.
When I first met you, I didn't know
what to think: do I stay,
or do I run?
I'm glad I stayed, because
I fell for you that first
moment.
You stole my heart forever, at the
first wink you gave me.
That cheeky wink can
still send shivers dancing down
my spine and makes me
tingle.
Your smile caused my heart to race
more than it ever has; you took
my breath away
the way you touched my skin.
I could see, feel the
sparks.
From that moment, a connection
was formed: an
unbreakable, strong
bond that will last forever
as we share our love, our
smiles.
I look forward to the day that we are
together forever: never
to be seperated
again; never to lose touch with
each other;
to be as one for
ever-more.
And as time passes, we'll have our
share of problems, but we'll
work them out,
get through the hard times, and
look forward for the good times
together.
23.08.08
what to think: do I stay,
or do I run?
I'm glad I stayed, because
I fell for you that first
moment.
You stole my heart forever, at the
first wink you gave me.
That cheeky wink can
still send shivers dancing down
my spine and makes me
tingle.
Your smile caused my heart to race
more than it ever has; you took
my breath away
the way you touched my skin.
I could see, feel the
sparks.
From that moment, a connection
was formed: an
unbreakable, strong
bond that will last forever
as we share our love, our
smiles.
I look forward to the day that we are
together forever: never
to be seperated
again; never to lose touch with
each other;
to be as one for
ever-more.
And as time passes, we'll have our
share of problems, but we'll
work them out,
get through the hard times, and
look forward for the good times
together.
23.08.08
You
Your voice: it lingers
in my ears as though it was
permanently there.
I feel my pulse race
as the memories of us come
flooding back to me.
All those times where we
sat and talked about nothing
in particular, where
we muddled our way
through and knew so much
about each other.
We didn't even need
to say anything because we
fell in love, and
no one could stop us.
We would be as one
forever and always.
Our love only became
stronger as time passed us by,
day after day.
I could turn and
find you by my side, even if
you were miles away.
You've become a part
of me, of my being, my soul,
and without you,
there is no "me",
because you are my earth,
my moon and stars.
My universe revolves
around you, for strenth,
for support, for love.
You are the air I
breathe, and I need you more
than anything
for our hearts are joined:
mine with yours, and
yours with mine.
Guard them, like
I would guard, and someday,
they will be united.
23.08.08
in my ears as though it was
permanently there.
I feel my pulse race
as the memories of us come
flooding back to me.
All those times where we
sat and talked about nothing
in particular, where
we muddled our way
through and knew so much
about each other.
We didn't even need
to say anything because we
fell in love, and
no one could stop us.
We would be as one
forever and always.
Our love only became
stronger as time passed us by,
day after day.
I could turn and
find you by my side, even if
you were miles away.
You've become a part
of me, of my being, my soul,
and without you,
there is no "me",
because you are my earth,
my moon and stars.
My universe revolves
around you, for strenth,
for support, for love.
You are the air I
breathe, and I need you more
than anything
for our hearts are joined:
mine with yours, and
yours with mine.
Guard them, like
I would guard, and someday,
they will be united.
23.08.08
Unveiling the truth about you.
There were days where I
thought you loved me, and
times when I believed you cared,
but I've finally realised
that it was one long nightmare
disguised as a dream.
I'd set my heart on you, in the
hope that I could be yours,
but when it boiled down to
being just us,
you left me here and
never looked back to me.
All those times you got in touch
were really lies, spun into
webs to fool me, trap me,
kill my heart.
Now I've been woken up and found myself turning away from you.
I'm glad you left me standing
there on the shore, for I
knew that I'd be lucky
if I survivedl survive
drowning in tears, trying
to breathe, and failing.
It wasn't meant to be with
us, that awful term for
two in love. It tears my soul
to think that
I m ay have found my love, but
really, you weren't made for me.
08.06.08
thought you loved me, and
times when I believed you cared,
but I've finally realised
that it was one long nightmare
disguised as a dream.
I'd set my heart on you, in the
hope that I could be yours,
but when it boiled down to
being just us,
you left me here and
never looked back to me.
All those times you got in touch
were really lies, spun into
webs to fool me, trap me,
kill my heart.
Now I've been woken up and found myself turning away from you.
I'm glad you left me standing
there on the shore, for I
knew that I'd be lucky
if I survivedl survive
drowning in tears, trying
to breathe, and failing.
It wasn't meant to be with
us, that awful term for
two in love. It tears my soul
to think that
I m ay have found my love, but
really, you weren't made for me.
08.06.08
Save me...
I've walked so many miles,
just to find you're not
there any more.
All I wanted was to
win you back,
but somehow, you're further away
than ever.
Time is running out for me.
I have to get through
this time.
The put of hurt and pain
is just a form of hell, opened up
to break me.
There's got to be someone
I can turn to, to help
me through.
I'm praying, hoping that
you find me,
to save me from this nightmare.
I'm dying.
The pain tears through my body,
my soul becoming
ripped, torn.
I can't take this anymore.
I have to get out of this misery.
Help me.
28.05.08
just to find you're not
there any more.
All I wanted was to
win you back,
but somehow, you're further away
than ever.
Time is running out for me.
I have to get through
this time.
The put of hurt and pain
is just a form of hell, opened up
to break me.
There's got to be someone
I can turn to, to help
me through.
I'm praying, hoping that
you find me,
to save me from this nightmare.
I'm dying.
The pain tears through my body,
my soul becoming
ripped, torn.
I can't take this anymore.
I have to get out of this misery.
Help me.
28.05.08
New beginnings
The sky is breaking, and a
new days dawning. The
clouds above are pulling aoart
like whisps of cotton being
teased apart by the
ancient fingers of an angel.
A silence echoes through
the valley, chasing the
lost moonbeams that
linger around me.
I see the dew: glistening beads
dancing on webs of silk.
It's like a layer of darkness
has been lifted off me.
Your presence makes me smile
more than you know.
You've made my life worth living
again. You keep me going.
I don't know how I'd have
got through this without
you being there to guide me.
So here's to friends;
a toast to the people who
really hold the power.
Thank you.
27.05.08
new days dawning. The
clouds above are pulling aoart
like whisps of cotton being
teased apart by the
ancient fingers of an angel.
A silence echoes through
the valley, chasing the
lost moonbeams that
linger around me.
I see the dew: glistening beads
dancing on webs of silk.
It's like a layer of darkness
has been lifted off me.
Your presence makes me smile
more than you know.
You've made my life worth living
again. You keep me going.
I don't know how I'd have
got through this without
you being there to guide me.
So here's to friends;
a toast to the people who
really hold the power.
Thank you.
27.05.08
Twisted
Your love is like a maze:
all twisted and endless so that
I get lost in your heart,
never to be found again.
I can wander for days, and
only see the outside - never reaching
the freedom I know is there.
I lose my faith in you.
I'm under your spell, held
under water and allowed to
surface for breath, only
to be pulled under again.
I can't do this much longer:
you're drowning me in my own tears.
The taste of salt sickens me,
but I can't escape.
There is no escape from this.
It's a deep, worn rut that I keep
tripping into. There are no hands
to save me.
16.04.08
all twisted and endless so that
I get lost in your heart,
never to be found again.
I can wander for days, and
only see the outside - never reaching
the freedom I know is there.
I lose my faith in you.
I'm under your spell, held
under water and allowed to
surface for breath, only
to be pulled under again.
I can't do this much longer:
you're drowning me in my own tears.
The taste of salt sickens me,
but I can't escape.
There is no escape from this.
It's a deep, worn rut that I keep
tripping into. There are no hands
to save me.
16.04.08
Out there, alone
The tree in the garden
stand solomn and alone,
as though it were waiting for
someone, or something, to
notice it.
It looks like my heart.
The edges, dead and dying,
turn a murky shade of brown,
with the inner core,
young and green, unexposed
to life.
Hidden from hurt and pain.
Someday it will happen,
and the lifeful centre will
turn into the lifeless outside,
with nothing left to
care about.
That torrent of emotion
that rages inside anyone
who has ever loved, who has
ever wanted to give up
everything
for that special someone.
It never ends.
I'll let you fall, like the
leaves of that tree have done;
floating gently to the frozen ground,
only to find a cold,
lonely spot.
There's no warmth left.
16.04.08
stand solomn and alone,
as though it were waiting for
someone, or something, to
notice it.
It looks like my heart.
The edges, dead and dying,
turn a murky shade of brown,
with the inner core,
young and green, unexposed
to life.
Hidden from hurt and pain.
Someday it will happen,
and the lifeful centre will
turn into the lifeless outside,
with nothing left to
care about.
That torrent of emotion
that rages inside anyone
who has ever loved, who has
ever wanted to give up
everything
for that special someone.
It never ends.
I'll let you fall, like the
leaves of that tree have done;
floating gently to the frozen ground,
only to find a cold,
lonely spot.
There's no warmth left.
16.04.08
I'm Dreaming
I'm lying here in the cold,
dreaming that you're with me, holding me,
only to wake and find myself alone.
You're nowhere to be seen.
And as you snake your way
through the channels of my mind,
I can't help but wonder if I'll ever
find the centre of your heart,
or if I'll be left to suffer.
dreaming that you're with me, holding me,
only to wake and find myself alone.
You're nowhere to be seen.
And as you snake your way
through the channels of my mind,
I can't help but wonder if I'll ever
find the centre of your heart,
or if I'll be left to suffer.
Two sides of you
I'm alone, in the company
of others: no one to talk to,
no one to laugh with, no one
at all.
It's strange, and I don't
like it: you've become seperated,
you've become different
from you.
The person I once knew
has been swallowed by
a different body. The same
body encases a soul which is
not yours.
My mind can't understand
how you've changed from
the person I recognised
and loved, into
this.
I don't get it.
29.03.08
of others: no one to talk to,
no one to laugh with, no one
at all.
It's strange, and I don't
like it: you've become seperated,
you've become different
from you.
The person I once knew
has been swallowed by
a different body. The same
body encases a soul which is
not yours.
My mind can't understand
how you've changed from
the person I recognised
and loved, into
this.
I don't get it.
29.03.08
Inside
Blank. Cold features
on an ancient face.
No warmth in the way
you survey
the masses.
Eyes of stone.
Marks of war,
trouble, and pain,
scar your face.
You can't hide the
tears on your flesh
from prying eyes.
Your body is a canvas
for guns, blades,
for torture. You endure
it all, yet show no
emotion. The inner
strength shines out.
The words of a
hundred fights
strain your mind,
making you more aware of
who you are, and what
you stand for.
27.03.08
on an ancient face.
No warmth in the way
you survey
the masses.
Eyes of stone.
Marks of war,
trouble, and pain,
scar your face.
You can't hide the
tears on your flesh
from prying eyes.
Your body is a canvas
for guns, blades,
for torture. You endure
it all, yet show no
emotion. The inner
strength shines out.
The words of a
hundred fights
strain your mind,
making you more aware of
who you are, and what
you stand for.
27.03.08
Watch Over Me
You're there. Constantly
watching everything I do,
taking note of who I'm with
and what we're doing, even when you
don't want to know.
That pair of eyes, burning
holes in my pure white skin.
Your contempt at my freedom
and your confinement leaves
me scarred.
I am never alone.
I cannot do anything without you
seeing it or
hearing it or feeling it.
I feel your presence.
You haunt me every
moment of every day. I try to
make you disappear, go away,
but I can't. You won't go. You won't let me
live my life.
I want to make my own mistakes,
but how can I if you're
always guiding me away
from danger? I feel the need
to break free.
Some moments I am free. Free to
do whatever I want, without you
there to stop me. And then,
once again, you make your
presence felt.
Watching over me is making
it so much more diffficult
for me to change into
someone I am happy with, but
you don't get it.
I need to be set free.
Unchain yourself from
my spirit, my soul,
and let my life, alone,
begin.
26.03.08
watching everything I do,
taking note of who I'm with
and what we're doing, even when you
don't want to know.
That pair of eyes, burning
holes in my pure white skin.
Your contempt at my freedom
and your confinement leaves
me scarred.
I am never alone.
I cannot do anything without you
seeing it or
hearing it or feeling it.
I feel your presence.
You haunt me every
moment of every day. I try to
make you disappear, go away,
but I can't. You won't go. You won't let me
live my life.
I want to make my own mistakes,
but how can I if you're
always guiding me away
from danger? I feel the need
to break free.
Some moments I am free. Free to
do whatever I want, without you
there to stop me. And then,
once again, you make your
presence felt.
Watching over me is making
it so much more diffficult
for me to change into
someone I am happy with, but
you don't get it.
I need to be set free.
Unchain yourself from
my spirit, my soul,
and let my life, alone,
begin.
26.03.08
With you when I'm not
No matter where you are,
or how far away from me you are,
I still feel your presence in my heart,
filling the empty space when I'm away
from you.
Your smile: the memory of it
keeps me happy during the
worst days, and the thought of your
touch makes me warm on the coldest
of nights.
Thinking of your kiss fills me
with electricity. I feel as though I could
take to the skies, and never return.
A flight fuelled by your love.
Ecstacy.
Every night, I fall asleep and
dream of you, of being in your arms again.
The safety and peace you give
calms me when I worry or panic.
I relax.
Every time I'm with you, I know
that I belong there - in your arms.
You're my home, my escape from
my troubles, pressures. I can be
me again.
or how far away from me you are,
I still feel your presence in my heart,
filling the empty space when I'm away
from you.
Your smile: the memory of it
keeps me happy during the
worst days, and the thought of your
touch makes me warm on the coldest
of nights.
Thinking of your kiss fills me
with electricity. I feel as though I could
take to the skies, and never return.
A flight fuelled by your love.
Ecstacy.
Every night, I fall asleep and
dream of you, of being in your arms again.
The safety and peace you give
calms me when I worry or panic.
I relax.
Every time I'm with you, I know
that I belong there - in your arms.
You're my home, my escape from
my troubles, pressures. I can be
me again.
Can you hear me?
Day in, day out,
I call your name
in hope that you hear me.
But you don't.
I want you to feel the
need I have for you,
but no matter how hard I try,
you don't.
It's like
you don't even
know I'm there
when I'm with you.
I feel like I'm
under water, where my
voice is distant, and you
don't realise.
I'm drowning in this
pain, of you not knowing
that I need you, wanting to be
with you all the time.
Why can't you hear me?
Why can't you feel me in your
heart?
Do you know what goes on
in my mind?
I don't think you do.
25.03.08
I call your name
in hope that you hear me.
But you don't.
I want you to feel the
need I have for you,
but no matter how hard I try,
you don't.
It's like
you don't even
know I'm there
when I'm with you.
I feel like I'm
under water, where my
voice is distant, and you
don't realise.
I'm drowning in this
pain, of you not knowing
that I need you, wanting to be
with you all the time.
Why can't you hear me?
Why can't you feel me in your
heart?
Do you know what goes on
in my mind?
I don't think you do.
25.03.08
Set me free
Fly, fly, soar as you will.
Joy is waiting in the clouds;
these pure and weightless masses
of angel's breath.
You'll be safe there.
This moment of pain, blood,
sets your soul free to
find it's own path in the stars,
to wander forever.
A new beginning.
One life has ended,
and a new one begins. You
feel more alive now than
you ever did on earth.
Don't look back.
17.03.08
Joy is waiting in the clouds;
these pure and weightless masses
of angel's breath.
You'll be safe there.
This moment of pain, blood,
sets your soul free to
find it's own path in the stars,
to wander forever.
A new beginning.
One life has ended,
and a new one begins. You
feel more alive now than
you ever did on earth.
Don't look back.
17.03.08
Escape
One minute.
I need to get out,
away from this place.
Air.
Don't panic.
It's not that long to go now,
you'll be alright.
Wait.
Restless now.
The bell will come soon,
then you'll be free.
Hate.
I hate it:
being locked up inside,
too many people in
one small room,
cramped for air.
Help.
Hurry up.
I need out.
I need air.
I hate this.
Silence.
25.02.08
I need to get out,
away from this place.
Air.
Don't panic.
It's not that long to go now,
you'll be alright.
Wait.
Restless now.
The bell will come soon,
then you'll be free.
Hate.
I hate it:
being locked up inside,
too many people in
one small room,
cramped for air.
Help.
Hurry up.
I need out.
I need air.
I hate this.
Silence.
25.02.08
Out of the dark
The moon reflected off her hair,
shimmering rays of colour
dancing like fairies
from her head.
Shadows, her loyal friends,
engulf her body, her soul,
from prying eyes that are
desperately seeking her.
The sun begins to rise,
illuminating the skies
and waking animals from their slumber,
sending her back home.
Her wounds would heal in her sleep,
that dreamless state of unrest she'd known
all her life. Scars for tomorrow
gone today.
03.03.08
shimmering rays of colour
dancing like fairies
from her head.
Shadows, her loyal friends,
engulf her body, her soul,
from prying eyes that are
desperately seeking her.
The sun begins to rise,
illuminating the skies
and waking animals from their slumber,
sending her back home.
Her wounds would heal in her sleep,
that dreamless state of unrest she'd known
all her life. Scars for tomorrow
gone today.
03.03.08
The Time Has Come
The time has come
for me to say goodbye:
goodbye to everything I know,
the people who pretend to care
but are too concerned
by their own petty lives
to see the real world.
The world that we live in,
the one we perceive as a haven,
is really a burning
wasteland: hearts lie shattered,
souls hover around us, torn.
I don't want to know
that world.
I'd rather be
in my own secluded place.
A world with no vicious light,
no heartbreak, just black.
Cold, dark earth all around.
A grave, with nothing else but me.
Peace.
04.03.08
for me to say goodbye:
goodbye to everything I know,
the people who pretend to care
but are too concerned
by their own petty lives
to see the real world.
The world that we live in,
the one we perceive as a haven,
is really a burning
wasteland: hearts lie shattered,
souls hover around us, torn.
I don't want to know
that world.
I'd rather be
in my own secluded place.
A world with no vicious light,
no heartbreak, just black.
Cold, dark earth all around.
A grave, with nothing else but me.
Peace.
04.03.08
Why?
The tears build up in my eyes.
I don't get it.
You hide things from me,
and yes, I know I'm a hypocrite,
but I don't care.
I thought you were meant
to tell me everything, be straight with me.
Am I living in a dream world?
I only want the truth.
Are there things you are meant to
hide from me, or am I just
imagining that we shouldn't keep
things from each other?
My heart's sinking.
And I can't find a life-raft,
or a barrel; nothing to keep me
drifting in this ocean of tears.
No hands to pull me out, or
set me free.
I feel caged in by something
unidentifiable. And I hate it.
I can't find a happy state,
and every time I think of you,
I'm falling.
Falling deeper and deeper into a pit
filled with dispair and hurt.
My eyes, drowning in tears,
scream for salvation.
My emotions over-power me.
Damn.
18.02.08
I don't get it.
You hide things from me,
and yes, I know I'm a hypocrite,
but I don't care.
I thought you were meant
to tell me everything, be straight with me.
Am I living in a dream world?
I only want the truth.
Are there things you are meant to
hide from me, or am I just
imagining that we shouldn't keep
things from each other?
My heart's sinking.
And I can't find a life-raft,
or a barrel; nothing to keep me
drifting in this ocean of tears.
No hands to pull me out, or
set me free.
I feel caged in by something
unidentifiable. And I hate it.
I can't find a happy state,
and every time I think of you,
I'm falling.
Falling deeper and deeper into a pit
filled with dispair and hurt.
My eyes, drowning in tears,
scream for salvation.
My emotions over-power me.
Damn.
18.02.08
From The Past
No matter where I look,
I see reminders of you.
Music, shops I'm in, bring memories back
thick and fast.
Times of when we sang together,
others where we danced in the
strobes of moonlight,
holding onto each other as though we
might get lost in the night
if we didn't.
All those times we smiled,
laughed at each other,
at ourselves. We had to.
It's what we do best. Laugh.
02.02.08
I see reminders of you.
Music, shops I'm in, bring memories back
thick and fast.
Times of when we sang together,
others where we danced in the
strobes of moonlight,
holding onto each other as though we
might get lost in the night
if we didn't.
All those times we smiled,
laughed at each other,
at ourselves. We had to.
It's what we do best. Laugh.
02.02.08
Love
Love is a disease.
It has no cure, nothing can stop it.
It has the power to
course through your body,
ripping and tearing your flesh
as it races for your heart.
The steady, constant beating
halts as love infects you with poison,
and you have no idea.
The virus spreads, cell after cell, until
your muscles, bones and mind ache,
even when love leaves you.
Your body craves the love that so
violently tore your world apartm
in hope that new love cures old love.
The truth is that new love only deepends
the scars that old love once caused.
It kills you inside.
30.01.08
It has no cure, nothing can stop it.
It has the power to
course through your body,
ripping and tearing your flesh
as it races for your heart.
The steady, constant beating
halts as love infects you with poison,
and you have no idea.
The virus spreads, cell after cell, until
your muscles, bones and mind ache,
even when love leaves you.
Your body craves the love that so
violently tore your world apartm
in hope that new love cures old love.
The truth is that new love only deepends
the scars that old love once caused.
It kills you inside.
30.01.08
Just thinking...
When my mind wanders,
it travels straight to you
like a direct train,
my heart pounding to the rhythm of the tracks.
I see your face, smiling gently at me.
Mine acting the cracked mirror,
returning the smile with only a
delicate hint of pain from the heart within.
That glint in your eye:
it could rival the brightest star
in the galaxy, imitating our love -
the rare, outstanding love that we share.
Your kiss is ecstacy.
I could trip for hours
just reminiscing on past times
when your lips caressed mine.
When we touch,
you make me feel like I could fly.
Lying in your arms is my heaven,
my escape, my home.
I'm safe.
29.01.08
it travels straight to you
like a direct train,
my heart pounding to the rhythm of the tracks.
I see your face, smiling gently at me.
Mine acting the cracked mirror,
returning the smile with only a
delicate hint of pain from the heart within.
That glint in your eye:
it could rival the brightest star
in the galaxy, imitating our love -
the rare, outstanding love that we share.
Your kiss is ecstacy.
I could trip for hours
just reminiscing on past times
when your lips caressed mine.
When we touch,
you make me feel like I could fly.
Lying in your arms is my heaven,
my escape, my home.
I'm safe.
29.01.08
Memories
Remember...
That time we walked along the beach,
you got sand in my shoe, then
a crab attached itself to your jeans
and pinched your ankle?
I'll never forget it.
You took my hand,
then you sat me down, and told me
you loved me more than anything,
and all I did was sit and smile,
without saying a word.
I couldn't.
You stole my breath,
along with my heart, when you told me
you needed me more than oxygen,
that you'd look after me, and make me as
happy as I made you.
I got it back.
The breath you stole,
with your tender words, your touch.
Your love shone through your eyes.
I knew you were true, and
I loved you too.
So I told you.
Your heart is my sky,
your arms are my home, my escape from
everything. The day I met you,
I knew I'd never find anyone as special.
You are my soul mate.
And then you asked.
You asked that question.
The one that every girl who walks on earth
hopes and prays to hear.
You asked me as the sun set.
You smiled.
You knew my answer.
It was one simple word.
You hoped you knew it,
I prayed you knew it,
and you did.
Yes.
27.01.08
That time we walked along the beach,
you got sand in my shoe, then
a crab attached itself to your jeans
and pinched your ankle?
I'll never forget it.
You took my hand,
then you sat me down, and told me
you loved me more than anything,
and all I did was sit and smile,
without saying a word.
I couldn't.
You stole my breath,
along with my heart, when you told me
you needed me more than oxygen,
that you'd look after me, and make me as
happy as I made you.
I got it back.
The breath you stole,
with your tender words, your touch.
Your love shone through your eyes.
I knew you were true, and
I loved you too.
So I told you.
Your heart is my sky,
your arms are my home, my escape from
everything. The day I met you,
I knew I'd never find anyone as special.
You are my soul mate.
And then you asked.
You asked that question.
The one that every girl who walks on earth
hopes and prays to hear.
You asked me as the sun set.
You smiled.
You knew my answer.
It was one simple word.
You hoped you knew it,
I prayed you knew it,
and you did.
Yes.
27.01.08
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